fuchsia sunbeam

Ask me anything   wife. mother. friend. gemini. dreamer. reader. writer. photographer. listener. artist. wanderer. learner. traveller. free-thinker. questioner. activist. gardener. home-maker. nature-lover. introvert.

Living and co-parenting with someone who suffers from depression, who “treats” their depression daily with alcohol and weed and basically refuses to try other methods of self-help and nurturing is really fucking hard. Especially when I believe so strongly in attachment/gentle parenting and I’m forced to do almost all of the toddler soothing and patience-testing parts of the role. I feel burned out and un-nurtured at the moment in a big way. I have to ask for/prompt most of the help I get and there is no thought for what I might be needing or wanting in this situation. This is really testing me.

— 4 days ago with 1 note
#mumblr  #mumblog  #parenting  #depression  #addiction  #burn out  #unmet needs  #love  #marriage  #testing times  #i feel alone 
Belonging feelings

The last 48 hours have been a bit full on and by this afternoon at 4 I was feeling pretty down and over it. We went to the local produce market to get our usual load of tomatoes, passion fruit, olives, etc. and to eat at the weekly wrap stall. I went to order my wrap and the lady said with a smile “you want your usual right?”. That gave me a little happy feeling, something about being part of a community with people who remember you. Then we sat down to eat and the passion fruit man came over to us to say he was almost sold out and did we want him to put some bags aside for us. That was all I needed to get my happy back. It’s funny how just a little connection from a couple of familiar people can make me feel such a deep sense of belonging and contentment. I don’t even know their names but they and all the others who have become familiar friendly faces since we moved here make me feel like this is where I want to be. Even when I have a tough run of it and life seems a bit shit, at the end of the day I know we made a great move coming here. I can’t wait to find the perfect place to buy and to sink my roots in nice and deep. This is a good place.

— 1 week ago with 1 note
#the northern rivers rules  #belonging  #contentment  #community  #local 

1. Muffin anticlimax - the result of trying to hold unhappy toddler on hip whilst removing baked goods from oven
2. Successful banana and blueberry bread - very awesome recipe for a very yummy and fairly healthy snack
3. Biggest smile I’ve seen in the last 48 hours - Marley has been teething big time and has had diarrhea resulting in nappy rash which has now thankfully gone but teething pain still in full force - poor little man
4. Adventures with new finger paint
5. Knackered boy

— 1 week ago with 2 notes
#mumblr  #baking  #baking fail  #baking catastrophe  #banana bread win  #mumblog  #marley  #toddler  #21 months old  #teething  #poor baby  #nappy rash  #finger paint 
Messy looking brownies. They taste good though…

Messy looking brownies. They taste good though…

— 1 week ago with 1 note
#messy brownies  #baking  #naughty baker  #brownies 
I was feeling a bit naughty last night so I made some deep dish peanut butter choc chip cookies. They are wickedly good!

I was feeling a bit naughty last night so I made some deep dish peanut butter choc chip cookies. They are wickedly good!

— 3 weeks ago with 2 notes
#naughty baker  #yum  #nomnom  #tasty  #yummy  #peanut butter  #chocolate  #cookie  #deep dish cookie  #naughty food  #food porn 
admirall-halsey:

anexileddreamer:

perpetualvelocity:

rave-inmydreams:

as-cosy-as-can-be:

This is a wildlife bridge in the Netherlands. Wildlife bridges are designed to help animals cross busy highways in safety. They don’t just protect wildlife from being hit by cars - they also connect fragmented habitats and help populations intermingle and breed. The Netherlands is leading the way in designing these bridges. The country is home to more than 600 similar crossings.

So fucking dope

i guess you could say it’s an..
animal crossing

We have these in Canada too

WHY DID THAT PUN GO UNNOTICED


I love everything about the Netherlands.

admirall-halsey:

anexileddreamer:

perpetualvelocity:

rave-inmydreams:

as-cosy-as-can-be:

This is a wildlife bridge in the Netherlands. Wildlife bridges are designed to help animals cross busy highways in safety. They don’t just protect wildlife from being hit by cars - they also connect fragmented habitats and help populations intermingle and breed. 

The Netherlands is leading the way in designing these bridges. The country is home to more than 600 similar crossings.

So fucking dope

i guess you could say it’s an..

animal crossing

We have these in Canada too

WHY DID THAT PUN GO UNNOTICED

I love everything about the Netherlands.

(via wereverything)

— 3 weeks ago with 133374 notes

I’m really inspired in the kitchen at the moment. Tonight I made a roast chicken and it turned out so tasty, I was very happy with it and so were Carl and Marley. Two nights ago I made a zucchini, squash and eggplant casserole and it was really yummy much to my surprise because I used to hate squash and eggplant. I’m trying to expand my range of dishes and to make things I don’t normally eat in new ways so I can learn to enjoy them. I even made Brussels sprouts that I enjoyed a few weeks ago! That was a shock. I get so much inspiration from looking at yummy food links on Pinterest. It has been the best thing for me as a home cook. My next goal is to perfect cupcakes and get better at cake decorating so I can make a special looking cake for Marley’s 2nd birthday. I want him to love it!

— 1 month ago with 2 notes
#cooking  #yummy  #nomnom  #cake decorating  #cupcakes  #birthday cake  #personal goals